blossom....

as my beard starts to grow faster by the second... and this belly seems to expand itself day by day... i realized(if u just realized,what i just realized..haha can't help it.love the song..) that time does fly... or warp itself as everything in life starts to become more and more divulge... how politics seems to become more and more obvious... of how crooked everything is... of how money seems to become the epitome(loved this song too..) of one's life... how lust seems to conquer the brain more than it should, where feelings starts to matter more.... where we never cared but we worry so much for something. what was practical seems so complicated(avril, sigh**)... what choices we have seems to always be wrong... why we even think when we know what to do... why am i even mumbling when it's all just crap... it's a grown up world. something we once wish for, as everything that's fun is above 18,or 21... but along comes the viruses and spy wares, you realized that everything just creeps up on you... slows you down... **sigh*** wish i was back in dorm 6 where the only worry i had was the night's warden(or the weird noise from petet's side of the bed..hmm..)... and that never even mattered...

what does matter though... is my car... which keeps draining my pocket every chance it has. my family, as i start to feel more and more responsible for them...because i can. and my sweet sunshine... my single orchid... my midnight lullaby...hopefully my other half. those matters more...
i'm too shallow, stupid even to talk about politics, or the downfall of the economy by the U.S manipulation of oil prices. but at this worried times, like any other pakciks,makciks or typical malaysians.... where we always depend or listen to our leaders.. we want to be assured... we want our leaders to think out of the box. we know 1+1 is 2. we want something more out of them. they are supposedly world class leaders for !@$%^!! sake.
And we believe what we see... and all we see are pathetic leaders who act all strong and wise but in truth seems clueless of whats happening...who seems scared of the oppositions next move more than the global threat. thats what us shallow people see, and guess what... we are the majority of malaysia. so change our perception. and we might see things differently. we don't just care about the bigger picture.. we care every single frame... so fix it.

i never cared so much about politics..or any big crisis around the globe... yes i'm that selfish. I love living my life knowing i am doing a greater good somewhere.. even if its a simple deed of picking a can. so if somebody like me(and i assumed millions others like me) seems to care... then i guess a change would be good. you suckla paklah. sorry,had to say it.

anyway.. i'm back onboard now... family, friends, a car and a girl... it was the perfect holiday. sigh... thanks guys, and err..love :))
till the next tingling, or just the next reform.. later guys.

monkey business....

stay

it's good to be home...

hit...

'cinta' is in the air..haha, or at the cinema i guess... anyway, it's a good movie to watch if you're with a special someone...sort of.unless you're gay or if you're with a group of gay guys, you can always watch it alone in the cinema,if not..wait for the cdla..
lucky for me.. i had the excuse of watching it with a special friend.. which makes it a special movie for me(hahaha).. its a beautiful film. words are kept right where it hurts or felt the most, the colour and pictures are a pleasure to the eye...(love this one scene where there's cows in the background..huhu..) its heartwarming and entertaining.... plus i get to watch it with that someone :)
its one of those films where you leave the hall smiling.seriously, you won't mind telling people that this is a malaysian film.

anyway..on a different note, nowadays i'm watching heroes...my ears favoring to the fray's how to save a life(again n again n again..)..playing with nothing but myself(hahaha that sounds funny..) as my xbox's tvs broken....cruising in my brand new with a scratch 2.0 civic(while crying along the way as i pay the bill..), realising that my heart tends to pound faster nowadays as i hope, or wish while listening to that one sweet voice..sighh. yes youppe..i willingly become your target practice...

'cinta' s in the air ehhh..hahaha..banyakla..

and then there were 9...(well.... 11 actually , 2 cadets gone m.i.a !@#$%^&!!)

-Puteri Delima, fellow engineers August 2006.

fly....

I’m now on top of the monkey island… the highest point on the ship… I’m without a red cape.. but I am ready to fly.. I will fly.. I will fly…. I’d probably die.. well.. actually I’m in my room.. but I still wish I could fly.. if Christopher reeves made us believe that a man can fly..brandon routh just made me wish I could fly… the film was great.. I don’t care what the critic says.. I once again bow to Singer… the most powerful superhero ever created.. and it was magnificently presented by Singer. I like every single bit of it.. the way Supes stops the plane.. stop a bullet with his eye.. puffs away fire.. the way he gaze upon the sun.. the way he flies…watches the earth from atop.. carries a whole continent on his shoulder.. he was god among men.. and Singer knows it. And when his on his knees, it was still a great scene.. luthor being lex luthor.. Kevin spacey was no mistake. Superman returns after 5 years in space… and when he did his first save in the movie, I felt the lost. That was how great Singer did with the movie. I felt like I was reading a masterpiece by alex ross. Where every picture spoke through itself.. there was little dialogue, but every action speaks.even I myself am out of words.. I really am a happy guy today.. being in bintulu I didn’t expect there could be superman returns in the Cineplex… but there was. Though it was no gsc.. there was nothing to complain about. It was worth every damn penny… though not as good as spidey.. but still a masterpiece. i really need to fly...